Ordinary World

For me my ordinary world isnt always where I feel most comfortable. I'm comfortable with going to school and dancing most days, I'm comfortable with most of the people around me; my siblings, most friends, my pets and my teachers. However I'm not overly comfortable with my mum, I feel as though she doesn't really know me, and who I am or who I'm becoming. I feel distant from her and I can't tell her things. But now that he lives in China I most defiantly feel as though I'm not as close to him. The other night I skyped him and usually we have so much to talk about and our conversation goes on forever and ever, although this conversation didn't, and when we ended the call I started balling my eyes out because its so painful being here with out him. We didn't even talk much, we couldn't think of what to talk about. It hurt. A lot.
And then theres one friend whom I'm going through a scruffy patch with at the moment, at least I hope its just a patch ill be talking or explaining something to her and the response I get is "cool." each and every time and it actually makes me feel like absolute shit. this really hurts as well, it really bring your self esteem down. ever since I've known her I've told her about this guy who I will always have a thing for and I've explained this to her several times. but don't worry because she ignored that and has decided that she likes him. so that went well.
-liz